Saturday, February 13, 2010

Random Thoughts: Broken Dreams

I didn't realize just how strong and compelling a fantasy can be.

Some time ago, I met a guy. I didn't expect anything when I first met him, but we had fun talking. He was easy to talk to and knowledgeable about a lot of things, and I looked forward to seeing him. We even found stuff in common. We built a rapport of sorts and that's when I made a wrong step.

I started fantasizing about him, making up stories about him in my head. I knew they were make-believe, of course, but they filled me with hope, which is more addicting than I realized.

To be fair, he didn't mislead me about anything. He was maybe just being himself--friendly, funny and smart--and maybe I read more into it than there was.

Just a few days ago, I found out he has a girlfriend. (I know, I'm stupid. I should've tried to find that out from the start, but I couldn't without prying.) I was...not shattered, but something close to it. My hopes lay in broken pieces around my feet and I was surprised when I even shed a few tears. (Too emotional for my own good)

The end of a dream would do that to a person, I think. I only thank God that I come to know of it this soon rather than later, when I probably would have fallen deeper into my self-created fantasy. I know it's not the end of the world, but I also know it would take some time for me to get over this. It's not everyday I find a man I like--really like--only to discover he's already taken.

Why couldn't my life be a book with an HEA after 300 or so pages?

P.S. I had the strongest urge to rename this blog "Broken Dreams", then realized it's not just my blog.


Carole said...


((( hugs )))

Shana said...

Chin up, girl. His loss.

You'll find him one day. In the meantime, we're here for you.

ErotRomReader (Janna) said...

O honey, that's sad, I'm so sorry!

Silver @ The Raving Readers said...

Carole, Shana and Janna, your friendships mean a lot! :) Really appreciate your presence in my life.


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